Programming languages yes, as for spoken/useful languages, not so much; Just a few words in a few other languages and that's about it.

We got a winner. This is why you feel this way. This is surely where your problem is.

You sound alot like me, too. I'm currently unemployed, but i'm self-taught in C++, Asssembly (ARM, Atmel, x86), and the list goes on. In fact, i'd settle for anything that was 14 an hour or higher, but but i keep getting told i'm not even qualified for the 12 an hour jobs. I have a girlfriend, pretty stable, the only thing keeping us from getting on with our lives is that all the jobs are for people who are looking for secondary income (walmart, kitchen work, mc donalds, etc) or are jobs that most definitely are paying too low for what they're asking (factory work at 10 an hour) or jobs that have ridiculous entry requirements (must be below 30, but must also have a degree and 10 years of experience).

I know what you mean, it's getting really old, and to some degree, I have trouble playing video games when i'm reminded of the issue. Currently, the only thing worth looking at is a police job offering 15-20 an hour. I have a feeling that since i was clinically diagnosed with a mental disorder (ADHD), that the one question on the application (which must be answered honestly) will disqualify me for a job, since it's a yes-no question, with no room to write ADHD. And the best part, everyone who's "helping" me, is pushing for me to go to this "job fair," tomorrow, and I know what will be there: all the jobs that are trouble hiring people, for the same reasons stated above. Why in the world does state police require a degree "in anything?" I'm 28, I don't have time or money to go back to school. I need a decent paying job now, not tomorrow, and I don't need to be paying off my college loans when i'm trying to retire.

For me, when they do this, i humor them, and they make me an account on their website with a half-assed resume. I'm pretty sure that resume is hurting my opportunitites.

Who exactly is holding you back?


We can change that, if you want, but that's not likely to help the present problem.

Who specifically? not sure, other than the mandatory BS that was in place. Like being told you have to hand walk a cup of water up 100 flights of stairs, it's just not worth the effort.

I'd love to learn other languages, but unless i'm immersed enough in a culture or environment to use it daily i would quickly forget it... Plus the easiest time to learn more than one language, is when you are very young, i think the 3-8yo range is best for that...

Man, if only the requirements were that easy.

Another favorite of mine is when someone talks with you informally, says "hey, you're smart, why are you settling for this kind of job" or something. I mean, sure, i could be more ambitious, but i'd much rather have a job and start my life, rather than not having a job. You'd be very surprised. Every time you hear a title for a new game or something, you are learning a new "english word." If I said "metalgear" would you forget that word? How about "RFID chip?" Or "android tablet?" No? Then why are words in any other language different? Hint: they're really not. It's all about your mind frame. That is complete BS that we're always told. Correlation does not imply causation. 3 year olds always end up learning with different methods than what most adults used. I've managed to get a random person able to speak japanese and sound japanese in 10 minutes, having never spoken japanese before, and he was easily 17 or 18. Granted, he wasn't able to say much, but he was able to continue learning japanese without using english or any other language. Method is everything.

Yeah, until you get to the top and you're missing a couple grams of water and are told to do it again... because evaporation... or some such other BS they throw in...

I'm just tired...

I totally forgot to ask this but I thought it was a great class for a skill everyone should have. Have you taken a design class? I mean something that gets into the history, layout, less is more, etc.
I LOVED that class and think everyone should take it. One of the things that was mentioned at the end was a good resume layout. My teacher's comment? One page and she was willing to help with the layout too as she's received requests for help many times.

I feel you on that. And for that reason, even though i'm not nihilist, i start getting those "scary thoughts" myself, sometimes. It's not because things don't matter, but i feel the torture and pain of knowing that I don't matter, except to certain people, whom will only continue to be hurt by the fact that I don't matter to anyone other than them.

But, then i remind myself, that it'll hurt them no more or less if i stuck around, and those scary thoughts go a way for a few weeks. I'm sick of it, i know where you're at. I can't play anything when i have that looming over my head. Once i started doing well in X2: The Threat, the game itself caused me to be reminded: "Here I am, building a niche at the top of an economy of a game, which is designed to give challenge to people who know what they're doing, yet I can't even get a middle class job in the real economy." If you feel anything like me, tired is an understatement.

Since you created the post looking for answers, i'm going to have to be blunt and open with you. I'm pretty sure the problem that we're both facing can only be solved by solving the problem that's ailing us. We're too smart to hide in video games, when we know that window of opportunity to have a life of our own is slowly closing. In your mind, you're like "fuck, yeah! I'm successful!" when playing video games, which then causes that pain in the back of your head: "Fuck, i'm not in real life. Why can't I apply my knowledge of these more complicated problems to the more simple problem of real life?"

I'll let you know if I find another solution. Do me a favor, if you do before me, let me know.

EDIT: You have an advantage that I do not. If you're willing to do police work, it generally pays very well, and your DD-214s will help you. I don't have DD-214s.

People these days have a hard time getting excited about anything and an even harder time staying excited about it.
I think this has several reasons, one being the overload thanks to aggressive advertising in our everyday life where everything has to be praised over the top to get noticed at all and recommendations lose all meaning, another reason my be the overall emotional numbness of a population that lives in a constant switch between too much work and relentless hedonism, there are surely more reasons to it as well though, like the industrialization of video games that make the whole design more profit driven, which also influences the struggling indies.

While i have considered going the police route, i'm not sure i could survive basic training a second time, with physical issues that don't want to go away. Though if i could, i'd probably be willing. But with such low motivation... well, i don't really feel like venturing back into hell, even if it isn't as bad as the military was.

Hmmm some good points. I just wonder if i'm being like an antenna or an empathy magnet.

It still feels like things are going in certain directions, and i'm just getting a hint of things before they happen...

What kind of physical issues? Depending on what they are, i might be able to help you with that. For some reason unknown to me (most likely incompetence), I seem to have a better idea than most doctors on certain issues. Feel free to private message me if necessary. I'm also available on skype. I felt like that a few times. Sometimes I really was an empath, other times i found it was my own feelings. i found, however, that people in general are indeed neurotic, especially women. It upsets me alot, actually, since people say they want X, Y, or Z, but when i try to help them get X, Y, or Z, i often find myself trying more harder to help them than they are willing to help themselves.