KiNgBrAdLeY7: Although i escaped from the worst... And engineered "emergency exits" from the very beginning... She left her mark on me and it is quite strong, this time... Needing desperately to be with someone that not only you are incompatible with, on many levels, but her viewing you as "enemy" or something, to top it all... Even i felt the sting, who always took great pride in my "defenses". I feel like being poisoned, this time i ache both inside and outside... She played her cards well and her deception was masterful. I "won", but lost. Don't ask me how, it just happened, i always bring something new and almost impossible for others (to do, let alone understand, for themselves).
I 'd rather i lost and surrendered to her, instead... I could make way to her, i really adored her... But she will never know. Besides, there are better "gentlemen" out there, for all i care. Losing (more like being forced to pass on, but anyway) your special other; i finally got a taste of that too, how it feels like...
Is this an excerpt from a work of fiction Love and Mr. Lewisham by H.G. Wells?